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Donna Burske's avatar

Mic drop. While vaguely aware of much of this, put together in a cogent presentation and fully accessible leaves no room for "light impact." Whoa. Reflection required after reading this (at least for me).

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

That’s the hope. That the pieces already rattling around in us finally find each other and start humming in the same key. No need for heavy-handed conclusions. Just the kind of reflection that softens the walls a bit.

Thank you for reading it with open eyes and heart.

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Alma Drake's avatar

Ah, but the newsfeed hath charms to inspire sometimes! When you find a human who is writing from depth and connection, especially. Thank you, my dear. This just gave me the last number for a combination lock I've been struggling with for a while. The knowing I'm getting is to gut check my mission, make sure I'm not fulfilling the dream of someone I used to be, and neglecting the needs of the person I have become. But I love my "jobs." The difference is presence, not doing but being, listening, observing, feeling. Allowing the world to unfold in the shape of my truest desires and deepest destiny. Beautiful. Thank you, thank you.

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Alma, that image of the combination lock is everything. Sometimes it really is just one line that clicks something open.

Gut-checking the mission... that’s the real work. Not chasing who we used to be, but honoring who we've become.

You said it best—presence, not doing. That’s how we slip out of the City of Separation.

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Elham Sarikhani's avatar

This is a rare thing: a mirror that doesn’t flatter, but reflects truth with tenderness.

This essay names the ache, the one we’ve been taught to optimize away.

And it dares to say: don’t fix it.

Stay.

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Elham, you just wrote the benediction I didn’t know the post needed.

"A mirror that doesn’t flatter"—yes. That’s the kind that tells the truth and leaves your dignity intact.

You saw what I was aiming for: not another sermon about healing-as-progress, but a pause. A holy sit-down in the ache we keep trying to edit out.

Thank you for staying. For reading like a mystic. For hearing the stillness between the lines.

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Elham Sarikhani's avatar

Thank you for making a home out of ache, and letting those of us who feel too much know we're not alone for it.

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Janet Fouts's avatar

“This remorse is not a problem. It is the beginning of the path. “

Yes, but can we drag ourselves out of the mud to take a step, and then another?

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

If the mud is honest, it’s already holier than most pulpits. Some days, dragging ourselves is the practice. Other days, just not sinking deeper is enough. And when the time is right, the next step rises to meet us.

No shame in resting between them.

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Stephanie C. Bell's avatar

Loved this. Mud can be healing. Elephants certainly think so.

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VedicSoul's avatar

A very clear reflection on soul-level recognition, where remorse is the crucible to discover change. Allowing the self to stir deep within. Very helpful insight...

Thank you 🙏👍

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Thank you, VedicSoul.

You named it—remorse as crucible, recognition as the spark. In a world full of noise, that kind of soul-stirring is rare and needed.

Grateful for your reflection.

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VedicSoul's avatar

🙏🙏

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Universal Monk's avatar

Excellent discussion and articulation of our current society's malaise. The insights you present parallel the key Buddhist recognition of our "suffering/unease" which is pervasive in Western countries (and increasingly in Asian ones in as well) but most people are not cognizant of it.

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Thank you, Universal Monk. Yes, the City of Separation has WiFi now and it's exporting spiritual disconnection globally, one dopamine hit at a time. Buddhism calls it dukkha, Jesus called it being lost in the world, and Facebook calls it "suggested content." Whatever the name, waking up from it is the real revolution.

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Stephanie C. Bell's avatar

Medicine. I thank you. <3

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Sharon Maxey's avatar

« The self of compulsion doesn’t disappear just because we meditate or go on retreat. It resurfaces. It reasserts itself. But with time, and practice, we begin to recognize its voice. »

I soooooo relate to this! Old habits and ways of being in this world die hard.

Thank you for this read; I needed the reminder today! 🙏🏻❤️

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Oh yes, Sharon. That self doesn’t go quietly. It shapeshifts. It whispers in our own voice. But with enough stillness, we start to catch it mid-performance and say, “Ah… you again.”

Glad it landed. You’re not alone in the wrestling.

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Teryl S.'s avatar

I so appreciate your guidance in the journey to…what should I call it that doesn’t smack of slogans often overused by society? When I practiced Nichren Buddhism, I would call it “enlightenment”. I still think that’s a good word for this journey. Enlightenment in that the path of truly knowing the true self is just that…illuminating who we are when we can see the whole.

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Teryl, you’re already pointing at it.

Enlightenment as illumination. Not escape. Not polish. Just seeing the whole.

Nichiren knew a chant could break illusion. Not noise—remembrance.

The true self doesn’t need building. Just uncovering.

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Teryl S.'s avatar

You have expressed this so well, as always. It is a matter of uncovering our true self. Thank you!

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Heron Sal's avatar

Loved reading this, thank you. I teach a form of mindful dance called Movement Medicine. And I love the work which is really about being in the body, befriending the body. But the aspect of marketing and attracting students, which currently is through social media, is so mixed up in the “surface” self. I end up avoiding it all together. Because I struggle to find a way to do it from authenticity, being myself, and not trying to compete/ be comparable with all the pretty websites and Instagram stories out there. Anyway, I appreciate this piece you wrote and will keep it close as I navigate this. And life in general :D. Take care!

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Trying to offer sacred work in a space built for spectacle is spiritual whiplash. The feed wants surface. You’re practicing depth.

Movement Medicine sounds like holy rebellion. Embodied truth in a system that rewards polish and posing.

Keep showing up as you are. The ones meant to find you aren’t scrolling for perfection—they’re aching for presence.

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Heron Sal's avatar

Thank you! Words I needed to hear. Not perfection, but presence. <3

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Nancy's avatar

Similar to "when the student is ready, the teacher arrives"? When your students need what you're practicing, they will come. :)

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Dawn Klinge's avatar

Remource is the beginning of the path....yes. Not shame or guilt, which is different, but a turning away from what no longer works.

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Dawn, yes. You just slipped a key into the lock.

Remorse is holy because it remembers. Not in the punishing way of guilt, but in the re-membering way. It stitches the soul back together after we’ve scattered it chasing false gods.

It says, this isn’t working. Not because I’m bad. But because I’m waking up.

Shame paralyzes. Remorse moves. Quietly. Honestly. Toward love.

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Sophia's avatar

‘mic drop’ 😂

love itttt

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Sophia's avatar

A song called Mark.

‘Fortune is a pariah,

and then I”ll leave

Into deeper Oceans

- not even a graze

I played it safe

what a waste.

All in working order

zipped up nice.

Time to get established.

Furnish my ….

And then I”ll

leave

I will deeply

Breathe

Say this part is played!

I am not

come

here to be stained.

I am come to

Create.

Into your Heart Fire 🐋

Say I am allowed

to swim with You

right now

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Virgin Monk Boy's avatar

Sophia, that reads like it swam straight out of some place between exile and arrival. The kind of song you hum to yourself when you’ve already burned the old maps and are learning to breathe in a different element. I hear both the ache of shedding and the defiance of creating anyway.

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Sophia's avatar

Yes all of this.

Learning to breathe in a new element , this if what it is would be wonderful.

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Sophia's avatar

The clear reflection back is a gift . Thankyou It is beauty.

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Nancy's avatar
9hEdited

There's a song in the Walk the Moon album /Talking is Hard/, called "Aquaman" (one of my favorite heroes as a kid, though I'm not sure it has more than a superficial resemblance :D), that may be drawing from a similar well; here are some excerpts that I found resonating:

"The real-life love

Is under the mirror of the surface

So cut my cord

I wanna know how deep we can take it"...

"Just keep holding on, holding on to me

Under, under the troubled surface of the sea"...

"Just when you think you're all adult swim

That's precisely when somebody shows you to the ocean"...

"Head first, into the water

And so it hits me -- I guess we could breathe all along"...

The chorus:

"So here we go

Head first, and no regrets

And no rules -- we can stay as long as we want

Slow-dancing in the darkness

And all I know is I wanna be here with you from now on"

It could be interpreted as a regular pop romance song with some metaphors, or it could be way more philosophical; I've seen it analyzed that way, too. :)

(and at the risk of seeming really shallow in a conversation about how much we're too plugged in these days, here's a video with the lyrics [it is actually a quite pretty song!]:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRVgptW7bYg&list=RDVRVgptW7bYg&start_radio=1

I love the group Walk the Moon, but they've bowed out of the "whole scene" for awhile, maybe indefinitely; I think they're trying to find themselves, too. :))

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